I don’t think it can get worse than tonight but I’m usually wrong about these things so I’m preparing for the worst but hoping for the best.
If I want to grieve my grandmas death by surrounding myself with a lot of people then that’s what I’m going to do and fuck anyone who tries to tell me I don’t care. You.dont.know.my.life.
I was at my aunts today and everyone was wearing black crying whatever so I was with my twin cousins who are 5 and I asked Ava if she knew why everyone was here crying and she said she thought her dads uncle was sick and that’s why everyone was crying because they were worried and then an airplane flew by and she said maybe that’s grandmas plane then I broke down in front of a five year old and started crying (I don’t cry in public it’s a sign of weakness) and she freaked out and I played it off by saying something was stuck in my eye and took out my contact and that ended that. But in conclusion today sucked.
